I'm not the same person I used to be, guys. I know that you're all thinking that I'm boring and have no personality and not anything special and all that. I understand! Nobody else I know has ever been told that everyone hated them and that they should kill themselves before. It's all good. So when you're hanging out watching a movie musical and casting all your friends as the parts and I get one of the "left-overs", one of the nameless people with no importance or substance to them, I totally understand why. Because that's exactly how one would describe me. I KNOW that I'm not unique or exciting or have funny little personality traits. When people are amazed that I know how to TALK and occasionally say something witty, I'm not surprised by their reactions. My entire life has been lacking in style and individuality and everything else that everybody else has grown up with that I never got to define for myself because I was too socially retarded and scared to go up to some friends-of-friends and smile and introduce myself. That's just how I've been. God knows I've changed drastically within the past few months but first impressions die hard, right?